St. Anthony Reunion @ 11:14 PM

Life does not last forever. Obviously. And a span of 5 years seems like a span of infinity and yesterday, the trip feeling like the whole walk around the world and then back. Wow.

Seeing the people you haven't seen in a thousand days when you used to spend a thousand minutes with them per month, easy. It's surreal, mind blowing, out of this world. Everyone is old and young, you want to hug them and don't want to see them at the same time. I was afraid they might think I am exactly the same, and totally different all at once. What do I want them to think? I wish I knew who I would be now back when I was 13. I wish I knew who everyone was going to be. Would I have treated them how I did? Would I have chosen differently, folded and hung the relationships and friendships that I was proud of and still am? I'm babbling on and on about what was. But what could be? Is it too late to change the course of our friendships now? Too late?

It's saddens me to think that we will part our ways eventually, not be in each others' lives the way we are now. We can't be neighbors our whole life through. But when we do see each other again, my friend, I hope you will remember me as I remember you.

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